Sunday, September 10, 2006
` 4:20 PM
jus came back frm guard duty. it was freaking taxing. first time doing guard duty and i was so unlucky to tio the weekend one so poof! off went 24 hours of my weekend time.
all thanks to my prowling buddy. wei liang. every shift we had different themes of wad to talk about. well done buddy! signals is proud of you. haha.
his nonchalant talking made me reflect on my life more. it made me wonder what have i achieve during my 19 yrs of stay in this earth. have i make full use of the time that i had here instead of wasting it away. he told me bout his dreams. his passion for chinese.his passion of wanting to write a script to be directed into a movie. his utmost love for his mum. his desire to stand out amongst the crowd. he told me that we shd always not follow the current and not blindly follow wad the others are doing. we mus create our own legacy and try the up stream. it may be difficult it may be tough but if you perservere you will succeed and the glory and sense of achievement is second to none. he tell me i mus make use of my ns life to learn as much things as i want. to pursue my interests. go learn a new language he said. go learn smth nice he urged.
he ad been liking a girl since he was 10yrs old. till now. his love for her is unchanged. i dont know if its true but if its i wish him all the best.
sometimes i wonder if we are masters of our own destiny and are we merely actors and actreses of our own destiny. i guess that our destiny has already been written but what makes us different frm the pl who chose to admit and bow down to their own destiny is that we can choose how we want to live it out. we have choices.
PS to a friend:
sometimes when you talk to me bout your life bout your daily doings. i feel kinda distanced. i dont know what the reason behind but i jus feel it that way. you seem to carry on n on with ya talkings while i jus listen and try to make revelant comments. a friendship is supposed to be a 2 way traffic not 1 way isnt it? maybe your jus carried away. of maybe you have drawn ya own line and its hard for me to get in. i dont know.